How to Deal? Dealing with Reality...

This is the most difficult thing about life.  People choose not to deal with reality all the time.  They watch TV, do drugs, drink, eat chocolate, play games in cyberspace and listen to elevator music. 

I've had people tell me to my face that I am not living in the Real world and yet every day I am up (regardless of how I feel) walking my dogs, interacting with others, looking at the world with real eyes and real appreciation.  I can take time in the middle of what I am doing and watch a snail roll over a red bell pepper strip, lift it up and eat it with a mouth (8 minutes).  I honestly had no idea they even had a mouth.  I thought they got nutrients through their pores and slime.  the mouth was the size of a capital "D" and it was fascinating to watch the entire process as I ran back and forth waiting tables. 

Like the Lakota in the top, black and white picture, I live in the Real world.  A world that many people have stopped paying attention to.  The world that Naturalist try to remind us about and shout warnings.  Most people know they have been seen by me because I take a Heart moment to look inside their Souls and recognize them - where ever they may be.  I never shake a hand without taking this moment to deeply know them through the eyes.  Most people are shocked - sometimes they come back for more, often they are too frightened and simply walk away - wondering why they are so uncomfortable.  For all those that accept my forthrightness and engage, they are amazed to discover the many layers of who I am and that I am genuinely interested in them. 

The Real world is about connections.  And while most people see me alone, or walking the dogs, I am deeply connected in the experience of "NOW."  This too is something many can't fathom, but ask me how I do it.  It takes remembering to cultivate that meditative moment, whether walking or sitting, it takes REMEMBERING.  That deep intention to breathe in and out and BE.

So when people ask me if you were Really in my life, I say wholeheartedly, "YES."  You only gave back 3 things and I remember each one and why.  I own 2 of the three.  You were right to give back 1 of the three.  And I burnt the most offensive and least honest on my part; 0.  And in your own way you were trying to give me the message you needed me to hear.  And then, you solidified it with the picture I will never forget.

Someone asked me last night where I got my Pikorua - if I had gone to New Zealand.  I said, "No, a Friend gave it to me."  Because the fundamental foundation of every relationship is Friendship.  The willingness to communicate and be connected.  I am "difficult" to relate with, because I believe in Naked relationships and call people into NOW, and as one friend said, I "never shut up."  (Smile) Of course you know that... (Arched Eyebrow).

However, I realize most people hate to be Naked.  I myself can relate to that physically, but not in my relationships.  When one friend went through a crisis, he told me "there's the door if you want to leave - go ahead."  I looked right back at him and said, "I know that makes you feel really brave - but I'm not going anywhere."

I hope in time you will understand that as well. 

I am not going Anywhere.

As the Pikorua entwines us through out Time and Karma, I am here for you.

I know I hurt you, I recognize that.  I know I freaked you out, I recognize that too.  Yet at the core of Everything there is Friendship and that is something you can Trust.  Friendship is a foundation that says, "I have your back" "lean on me" and "we can do this"

I will get beyond my fears, I will get beyond myself, the green veil will be removed - this too can be trusted.

Life is in the living, Love is in the giving...